Category: Let's talk
Ok so I don't even know what to say or where to start. It's really a small thing but when I fib it stays with me like sand in an eye.
Well here goes nothing. Now this wont mean anything to anyone other than those I know and have come to love on here.
When I first joined zone I was at the lowest point in my life and I wanted so much to fit in and I did jumped right in and every one seemed to like me for who I am. Then a few weeks or months later I went on vt and lots of people were there some I knew others I didn't anyhow at the time they were playing a game and randomly asking questions and it came to me, and they asked what do you look like. Sigh A bit back before that I had come in and a few were talking about some girl that goes on here and laughing. Now by this time I felt like I fit in and got to the point where I was happy to come in here and see them. So I thought if I tell them what I look like I'll be shunned like she was. I honestly don't know why I cared but I did and at the time people were giving out pictures and I was going to be honest but then I saw their pics and said umm I'm out of my range here. So I sent Doug a pic but it wasn't of me it was of my sister. Over time I kept sending the same pics because I didn't want to get caught. I have never lied about anything else to them. everything else has been gospel truth, family stories and what not. These people are important to me in many ways and I love them. They would ask to meet me and my family and I wanted to sooo bad but I was so scared of rejection and partly losing them. But I don't want to push people away anymore I want to be able to go out with new friends I make if I have any left after this that is. Like I said it was a tiny lie and I've lied about nothing else. I hope that those people I did lie to forgive me. some were directly and others indirectly. None the less I'm sorry: Doug, Kevin, Matt, Nem, Kai, Pipi, martin (I think I already told you the truth), Nef, and any I have forgot. I was stupid and though as I said it seems like such a little thing it's been bugging me a long time. It's still me who you know just not the pretty picture. Thank you I figured I openly lied I should openly apologize. Let me know if we can still be close..thanks
forgot Richard and mama peach sorry guys
Maria, I've known you a long time now, known who you are as a person. It really doesn't matter to me what you look like. Few of us really think we look much of a picture, and I know it matters far more to women what they look like than it does a man. I'd rather no one lied, but that's a little idealistic. However, I'm not going to lose a good friend simply because they may have told lies about their looks. I love you as my friend, and that hasn't changed. hugs and speak very soon.
Every one has stood in your shoes at one point or another in their life. Maybe when they were five, fifteen, or fifty. We all do this. Maybe not about pictures, but we find something. It's heard when you want to fit in and you do what ever you can to make a friend. Saying that your sister I don't think is as bad as somethings. I think that it took a lot of coridge to come out and tell everybody what you have. and if anyone shuns you because of it, then shame on them. They have done something wrong before as well.
So as Jesus says in the bible, for who ever has never sin, you may throw the first stone. Please not turn this in the a religiss fight?
ma rear,
I suck with words, but going to do my best here. I think you are an awesome person. And I have since I met you. You are strong, corageous, and an amazing woman that I look up to. Your looks have not mattered to me since day one and they never will. We all have our weaknesses and become self conscious about our looks at times. I must say that I considered doing something along these lines myself, so I can see where you were coming from. It takes a very brave and strong person to admit to this, and it makes me admire you even more. Maria, I love you dearly and you are one of the very few women that I can talk to, trust, and love. Hell you are my blonde twin, don't ever forget that.
I still hope that when I come to Nevada in July, that we will be able to meet.
There are many other things I wanted to say here, but I suck with words.
Ma rear, hugs, love you dearly.
Pipi
I wanted to thank you guys so much. I learned that I have some of the most awesome people as friends and I am one very lucky person. Nothing is worth more in a life than the people in it. You can lose every material thing but as long as you have them you have lost nothing. Pipi you made me cry lol and you are great at words. thanks.
Maria, I don't know you well, but coming out with such an admition was definitely a couragious thing to do. I'm sure to most people, what you look like makes absolutely no difference. If I did get to know you and I had some sight, I know it wouldn't influence what I thought of you. Your looks that is. Being a totally blind person, I personally believe that looks are just a bonus. It's what's on the inside that counts. So good for you for getting this off your chest, I applaud your courage to do so. But if looks are all you've ever fibbed about in your time, and you've truly let your close friends see you for everything else you are and represent, I wouldn't sweat the fact that you falsed a pic. There are a lot worse things for people to lie about in this world.
Cam
Maria,
I have had nothing but respect and admiration for you since i've met you here on the zone and vt. This teeny weeny itsy bitsy fib is like a drop of water in the ocean, a grain of sand in the desert. You are one of the greatest people i have met since i started coming here. Other people have come and gone since i've been here and faded from meniry. You have always been there for us, your friends. You are thoughtful and caring and it matters not what your outward appearance may or may not be. It's the person inside that really matters. You have shown us the inner Maria since we have known you.
I have been and always shall be your friend. (Mr. Spock, Leonard Nimoy, Star Trek 2: The Wrath Of Kahn
Richard
Maria,
I don't know you, but fessing up like that shows a lot of courage and character. I tend to keep to myself around here, but I've read alot of the name calling and personal attacks that happen here on a regular basis. Seeing some of that nonsense makes it totally understandable why you did what you did. Anyway, I was just impressed with your confession and just wanted to say way to go. Be proud of who you are. The people worth knowing won't care what you look like. You rock! Hugs.
I honestly dono much about this ugly girl. just as per my blindy imaginations.
But I love her as my friend because even though I'm an unknown to her, she was the one bought me the first premium membership here. that surprised me though in fact.
but as per my personal opinion, color or the money is not the thing needed for a true friendship. so you still be ugly and I love you more as my friend.
Raaj.
maria,
i still find u inspiriational and admier you alot,
as many have said, i look up to you, and think that your coragus, in all you do, speshally ad mitting that. if it bothers peaple then fine, but jpersinally, it dont matter to me. lodes of love to ya, and keep up the exolent work!. xxx admier.
Well, you're still Maria, but now you'll have to send me the real picture! Lol! It doesn't matter hun! In fact, I'm surprised you felt you needed to do this in the first place! I mean! Just look at Kevin! Lol! Seriously though, it really doesn't matter! But, don't! Do! It! Again! Or I will have to come spank you for real! Lol!